Neuro yesterday

Davis is sleeping, so I think I’ll post now where there’s not too much else for me to do… I kinda like sitting in his chair sometimes instead of on the bed.We went yesterday morning to get my head examined again and it went really well actually. Good enough so I only have to go back in 6 months instead of in 3! 

YAY. I’m fianlly comming to terms with the fact that I have tourettes … I don’t really like to think about it. I was told Dystonia and then it was changed and I think part of me will always want to say dystonia …even if its something else. We talked about the clonipin and the mirapex and what its doing and if its helping me then I should keep taking the one and not the other unless I feel like it and get it filled again if I do decide I want to take it just so its not old. 

my mother doesn’t want me to take the clinipin, thats the real reason why I never took it in the first plce…. I was scared…part of me wonders if it would have made a difference. Also talked to him about getting pregnant and what to do about drugs and things for that. I feel better now since talking to him with Davis. He said he was vrey happy for us…and it made me laugh because he had to tell Davis to remember to show up. lol So much for swimming in deas of puke like my mother things people are when they see us. 

hmmm… Whatelse about that appointment…we hit a hell of a lot of traffic on the way there…accidents on all the roads and it was a nightmare with hospital construction. I guess this is really my normal. And thats ok.

Oh, we went to Ostara* to talk to Mary but she was busy with things and wants us to make an appointment to talk to her. I need to remind him tocall me with his schedule so when i go talk to her today i can tell her and we can get all of that good stuff going! 

we talked about the wedding and things too yesterday while we were waiting to see mary…lot about my parents and their relationship and my fears of marriage because of them. Wetalked about that and sex and things last night too and other things that are important that we want to work on… things I want to fix it was good

Now if i could just get my cloak cut out today and maybe part of it stiched it would be a good day, and eventualyl i have to get the balls to try to drive to my store to get my check and get home because my gass ank is on E and i need to put at least a 1/2 tank of gas in my car! thatwould be nice… ive not put gas in my car since memorial day weekend… so i am looooong over due for it. 

i have a lot to backdate too.. but i’ll get to that i think… 

yeah… maybe….

donna and I are still not speaking nad i don’t care about her anymore. She got to humiliate me once and its not going to happen again that fucking bitch. I had to go in today and Donald and Vicky warned me that she would bein and how much she wants to be a leadre but wants to do no work. I said i’m not trying to rpovoke her or anything but its like… i cant help it sometimes…sand they understand… 

oh… I’ve had a killer horriable almost vomiting migrane all day… he’s made it so much better than I would hve on my own… I am so lucky to have him… but its stillh ere and that was great to start my shift with… bllllllllllleh

the women from the sign shop were back and Donna was pretty much abusing them and even after Donald told them that I am so capable and incharge I knew that I had to play my cards right with the specs and try to stay out of her way. I did my best and it was good until about 4…

Nelum is a moron. i love her but a moron. I know whenever she takes a cakeorder nad it says ” also wants green leaves” the person is not getting what they want. I took the friday drawr out of the wrack to get the order and the woman was os upset because of the order and now shes getting what she wants because of talking to me… I felt so bad. She was so upset that even he coworkers told her tocome back and talk to someone else about it. There was no reason for someone who has been working here for 5 years not to know better! 

donna yelled at me and got mad shitty and i got snippy back with her. that was the altercation… pain in the ass was all. I wish she could try to talk to me like na adult and not like some fucking lsave girl to her. She doesn’t respect anyone and likes to be “the adult” its like… fuck you. Act like na adult if you want to be one… but what she does is a discrase. 

She left early leaving me iwth her pies and all of te mess to clean up as usual…. idiot. the phone was rining all night… kermit is pretty useless but at least it wasn’t nelum and there was really no work other than specs. people just get so upitity over little things… like the business man that couldn’t bring the heartshaped cake because its weird then almost stabbedm e over it … and even when i found the eounds that we’re not suppose to haveo ut during the week he just want happy… and the cake that went missing because donna lost the order or something and i ahd to give it up for free. 

Like I said… eventuful night…

other than that… got home on time.. my love came to pick me up and we went out to get dinner at applebees.

it was a mad busy night…my head is feeling better but im really tired.. I guess im just going to have to go to bed and deal with it…. I wish ic oduls stay up as late as he can… i ahte that i tire out so early.

i sliced my finger open esterday on a drawr and its all gross… and i have work tonight too… thats going to be fun…

um… i cant wait to post my photos of my cloak that hopefully will be done soon…

wedding plans are going to be moving into full swing in a few more hours.

 is helping me do the planning and we have to make her cloak too. im debating stealing her material and make it. I cant believe the wedding is on the 30th…. ACK!

I’m hungry and feel like crying ….no one is a mind reader… and i guess I should have gotten more sandwitch stuff the last time I went out…. or had enough to make 3….but now im still hungry … and just feel genuinilly bad today… very sad today inside…

There was a  thing lastnight between us … about something I’m not suppose to talk about even in here… because i guess its no one else’s business… but at the same time I don’t like having something i cant post in here about.

So he’s on SecondLife… and I’m sitting here posting… and feeling pretty much worthless at the moment…and its more than the sandwitch…thats something that was my fault… I just feel like everything is my fault lately and nothing i can do is going to make it better. I know what I have to do but I just don’t think its going to work that way, and hes miserable too. I’d rather be miserable than him be over something stupid like that … and its so important… tis not the end-all be-all of the relationship but its the only thing that sucks he says. Everything else is good… other than my mother… and the fact that we’re not legally married yet… and she doesn’t know we’re living together… I mean, that seems like a lot of things to me.

But we’re getting married on the 30th… yep…handfasted… then the legal thing…. yep…stupid thing… I cant even talk about how I feel about it… and I cant remember the 13 reasons why I want to do this… I mean.. my number 1 reason for doing it is because he wants to do it…. and I know hes going to read this and its going to hurt his feeling and I don’t mean for it to be that way. For everything hes done for me…

I should get back to looking for a wedding band I like…and i have to get a new medic alert bracelet… i let my subscription lapse…. I don’t think i’m ready to be a grown up…

things and thangs

this summer class is killing me… i kinda hate everything about it no matter how interesting it seems to be… Davis hurt himself at work yesterday too hes all banged up and his ankle is very swollen… he said that hes fine and i believe him… but hes hurting a real lot from it… i worry about him a lot… its part of that love thing.

my wegmans failed their corprate health inspection yesterday and it made me feel sad but steph and i were laughing so hard the whole time about it. WE knew it was comming. George is a real idiot… of course we failed… and i got 2 hours of overtime last night… i might try to get more in over the weekend. If donald and vicky are going to be working a double and a half I might try to get some that time too.

Davis is sleeping now… im worried about him as always… im happy hes sleeping though. I think he went to bed at like…4 or something again…I’m glad hes sleeping… I should be starting my open journal entry for tomorrow so that im not totally  dying after i get out of work at 8.

I am totally getting out on time tonight….

short post… just have to get back to homework… i love my davis… we got stuff for our cloaks today… not much i really want to talk about other than that, my job is driving me nuts too …

i think im going to finsih my work and go to sleep