my moms cancer came back again, its not something that will kill her, but its come back again…. thats all… I have an awards ceremony tomorrow and im sad no one will be there now… i thought Davis would be off work but hes not and i know its not for anyone to go to but i really just wanted… i dont know, i just wanted him to be home at least …

thats so selfish

another marathon day at the wegmans

Arabic was hard again today but it was okay… i cant wait to take the class again next semester so i guess i’ll learn what i missed.

Xtina came back from Rochester today and I met the ultimate brownie that i know I’m going to be making more than anyone else … we talked a lot about it and how that fucking heart thats now on everything is because colleen wegman uses that as her symbol… IT IS NOT SEASIONALLY APPROPRIATE. use the W for gods sake … i just want this week to be over . I’ll do my best …

the ordering stuff for me is getting better … i got to take the order for the first time today instead of just placing it … thats really big but Donald and Vicki are so worried im just going to be abused because of it …. i think im going to be … there is no full time position for me ever … les sigh

we’ll just have to see… thats all for now

gotta do a lot of things … post them l8er so i remember

i had to be in by 6:30 …. left at 2 … had an exam at 220-330 … worked on a paper until 6 then went to class until 9:30 … I’m home now but i just want to drop. Today wasn’t a bad day for me at all, but it was hard because i had to make all those desisions and i was apologising too much for having to tell people what to do. I was MOD, i had to do it and i need to not apologize for doing my job the next time i do it …. it wasn’t a bad day

i think i blew the arabic exam though

and i dozed through sals class until we got to the shit about logic, i hate that class … if i wanted a science or a logic class i would have taken one… just give me my poor seminar

Today i found out the Marissa went into hospital for more spinal taps and more pain and more stuff because shes sick. I thought she was just going to go for a check up … so tomorrow im MOD for the bakery and i dont have all the training to do it… I dont think riss is a good friend of mine all the time but really, she means more to me than I let on … but i think im the first to know … she went in at 2 and i knew at 3:15 … and the upper management didnt know until almost 5 … i wonder if Xtina knows …

i wonder if this means i will be full time sooner?