so, my new job doesn’t suck as bad as the last job did by this point. Im crying for different reasons this time. It’s not perfect, I dont want to stay here forever … but it’s decent for now. the only problem is that i am so exhausted … I come home and Im not even here like 3 hours… then Im passing out.

this is hard. It’ll get better.

the problem now is that I keep freaking out over my teeth and knowing I need some work done … still … since I maxed out our dental plan… I found little pinholes in my teeth … I know they need to be filled but now Im scared to the point that I might actually take the drugs this time……..I don’t need them and I need to stop doing this to myself. I’ve been fine the lat 2 times. and its not like I can go any time soon. He told me what to look for and when to know there is trouble.

I just do this everytime I feel like tings are out of my control, this is something I can sorta control. I just dont know what to do about it.  ihave to go for cleaning in August and we’ll just have to work something else out with them to see what we can do.

Today …. I go into work and I quit my fucking, stupid, worthless job… I found out yesterday the new place hired me … for more money, closer to home … with everthing better.

Dear Wegmans, it’s not me, its you. And you are the weakest link. goodbye.

Weis called me last night … at like 7:20 but I didn’t have my cell on and the store manager wanted to talk to me… he was worried because of some of the stuff from my interview might have made me think he wasn’t telling me the truth. The woman kept trying to talk me into a part time position so I wouldn’t be disappointed … and down from what he promised me from compensation . The woman was nice to me and i liked her and we had a great interview … but it was so nice to hear from the store manager himself that it would be a full time position and I would be getting the amount I asked for. it was so nice to actually be talked to like I matter for once by an employer.

He said I will hear soon about when I can start. It’s so exciting.