Post for the day…


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Today was busy for me. I did a hell of a lot of housework and stuff like that… spent the whole day inside and I’m tired! We had a major crisis though… My mom and I got this freezer for the basement… because we freeze like … everything… and when I got home from shopping I took all the cold stuff down to the freezer, and went back up for the rest… pulled on the light, opened the lid and all this water rushed off the thing, and SOAKED the floor around me… and EVERYTHING in the freeze was defrosted and warm… My mom and I lost a couple hundred dollars of food! …it was sick… kinda lost my appite for the rest of the day after throwing out 3 black bags full of food, it was sad…

I really just spend most of the day cleaning… I’m going to sleep tomorrow! damn it! I have to go to martial arts and shit for the day class… but that’s okay, I’ll buy a sword and stuff like that… but today was boring because I wanted to hang out with SOMEBODY… but I got to hang out with my mom and do stuff like that… you know? Just a lot of busy work… I damn hate busywork… I didn’t get any of my research on Wicca done… I know it should take years, and I know that it will take years. but I do like working on it in a good consistent fashion… I could do it now.. but it doesn’t seem worth it without having a lot of time to do it here, Ya know?

Anyway… I kept saying I wanted to talk about stuff in my Journal last night that had to do with Dave, I made him blush last night ( It’s soooo easy to get him to blush… it’s so cute too) But I spoke the truth about the sun half of the sun and moon. And it’s all true, I had no intention of giving the other half away… I thought I would wear the sun… even though the moon is the half the person who bought it is suppose to wear… and I remember the day he went home I had both halves on… I think I had them on for a few days before I give him the sun half… I wasn’t going to give it to Victor… because he looses EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING I mean… god… He lost the teddy bear I sent him… the Glass snowflake I sent him to make up for the one I broke… and he never found that…he’s lost letters… objects… *sighs* and I didn’t feel like hearing him say he lost it… and this is real… The only reasion I can wear this half is because it’s made of REAL pewder… so I won’t get a reaction to it…. and if Vic lost it… I’d kill him… well, I’d be a little irked at him… he can be SUCH an idiot sometimes… Sweet… but really, really, REALLY stupid…

my twitching is really bad today too… it’s driving me nuts…I hate when this happens… it drives me NUTS… nuts… and I’ve been just bored today…

but good news for me though… Tomorrow I get to go to the Califon Fireman carnival with Artie and get to have a good time with him, we might go Wednesday, but it all depends when he gets off of work. Saturday I get to sign up for the skate park on Red schoolhouse and daves gonna teach me to skate like a boy… I really cant’ wait for that, I’m so excited! I don’t know why though, maybe just to prove anything you can do I can do better… I’m a little worried about the shoulder though…. I’m scared of breaking it to pieces! Then… dun dun dun on Sunday I get to hang out with Colin and do nothing with him for a few hours, I’m kinda happy I got fired now! more fun for me.

PLEASE don’t rain on Saturday! I’ll just cry!!!!!!

well, until later

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other things about tonight


I’m starting to get tired now … so I just have things to put in… something about Dave I guess…stuff I saw in a dream last night… it feels just like a faded memory now… I’m happy I wrote down everything I saw then… but it’s like now it never happened…

But I saw heaven….what I thought was heaven….you go through these big hotel doors and inside are people dressed like travelers, from all over… old women, young kids with belongings… there were groups of women dressed in all off white with dark black hair… sitting together… praying

one girl said she couldn’t go because she wasn’t 16 yet…

and through another set of doors everyone went and gathered under a big full tree, holding hands silently while stars fell like snow all around them… And by the sliding doors to this tree… there were women sitting together on packages I think.. dressed in that off white… in dressed in aged white… with white on there heads praying… and I go through the doors again… and I see there are people from all walks of life, religious or not… all gathered together with nothing denying them… all stood there under this glowing tree… surrounded by this white light… and when it came to me… I chose to go home…

I felt like I was separate from all of these people… like I was traveling between worlds… and I got the chance of a lifetime to see what it was like after you die… and when I woke up…. I was scared….

later in the car home from penna I saw a skull and crossbones in the clouds, made out of dark clouds… then my dad slammed on the breaks… and we almost dead stopped on 78… because people were stupid… and I turned up my headphones even louder…

I don’t know what else to say… I want to talk about Dave… I want to talk about how I feel about him… I want to say everything… just because I’m in the mood to just be totally open about things, I want to talk about everything… and I might write it all down tonight and post it all in the morning and just let all hell break loose again and see what happens… because then everyone will know… and I’m honest in this journal… more so then so many other people are… and I’m hoping that everything I saw was just a dream.. or an OBE… I know it was just a dream, and I keep telling myself that…

Survey


1. List in order, your top 5 most desired super-human powers:
Flight… that’s it
2. What do you like best about yourself, emotionally?:
that I can separate myself from everyone else to try and help other people better
3. What do you like best about yourself, physically?:
I have a lot of endurance and I can adapt to constant pain

4. Do you bathe in the mornings?:
yes

5. Do you bathe in the evenings?:
yes
6. How many times, in a week, would you say you’ve washed yourself?:
Every day, and every night… so a lot…
7. Do you flex in the mirror?:
No… but I like to look at m’self nekked sometimes
8. Do other people find you attractive?:
I wouldn’t know… I wouldn’t think so
9. Do you find yourself attractive?:
not really…
10. List 5 things you hate about yourself:
My personality, the way my mind works, my voice, my life, my disorder
11. List 10 things you like about yourself:
I can’t list 10 things because there aren’t 10 things
12. List 5 people you care about online:
Chris, Jahn, Josh, Doug, Davie
13. List 5 people you care about in real life:
Vic, Dave, Anthony, Fabs & Isabella
14. Overall, do you love yourself?:
no comment… but I guess
15. Are you more happy, than not?:
I’m pretty much inbetween…

16. Have you ever been hit before?:
Plenty
17. Where were you hit?:
A bunch of places
18. By what?:
A bunch of things
19. Did it hurt?:
Hell yeah it did… in more ways than one
20. Is the glass half-empty or half-full?:
totally empty, because I drank it

21. In what color do you see the world?:
Dark blue and white…

22. Why?:
because when you mix them together you get the color of the sky
23. How often do you swear?:
Too often
24. How often do you swear at other people?:
too often, a lot at Dave Imbriaco
25. How does this make you feel?:
Bad sometimes… sometimes
26. Are you on some kind of medication?:
yes
27. Do you think you need it?:
yes
28. Right now, who/what do you feel like hugging?:
Victor or one of the Daves
29. Name 3 songs you’d listen to right now:
Goo goo dolls – Iris
Ben folds five – Brick
TRUSTcompany – Running from me
30. List 3 people who’s voices you’d like to hear right now:
Victor, my Isabella or Josh
31. What is your favorite noise?:
My piano
32. What is your favorite word?:
Spjoot
33. What is your favorite color?:
Midnight blue and White
34. What is your least favorite noise?:
Gettingg yelled at
35. Least favorite word?:
goodbye
36. Least favorite color?:
Red
37. Do you value your friends?:
a few of them.. yes
38. Do you value your family?:
I use to
39. Do you value your stuff?:
some of it… yes
40. Do you self-mutilate?:
a little bit… yes
41. Do other people mutilate you?:
yes… mentally and physically

42. Have you ever been beaten up before?:
yes… and it hurt…
43. Have you ever beaten anyone else up before?:
yes… because they hurt me
44. What’s your favorite animal?:
45. What’s your favorite desert?:
46. How old are you… mentally?:
I think about 7
47. What’s your favorite “smiley face”?:
>^-^< or *}:{*
48. People most often refer to you as:
Cold
49. What is your favorite quote?:
I can’t see you… but I know you’re there
50. What will you do now??:
post this in my lj, then go take a shower and do nothing until the concert tonight


You are … Princess Serenity!!
Princess Serenity is very mature for her age. She does not wail when a monster attacks and tries to the best of her ability to protect those that she loves. She has a young beauty that leaves others in awe and she is very respected. Princess Serenity loves the glow of earth. She can be a little too trusting of others but she always gives people a chance, no matter what.

What Form of Sailor Moon Are you?

this quiz was made by Nikitsuki

Tonight was a great night


Well, tonight was the benefit at the church… it went GREAT…. it’s hard for me to describe… I had so much fun… I love being with Dave… I really do. he’s so much fun to perform with, I’ve never had so much fun performing like I did with him. we did Sympathy, Slide and Everlong as our 3 pieces. I think Slide was my favorite out of the 3. I’ve always loved sympathy.. so maybe it’s a tie, but I loved it…

it was funny though, we were practicing in the church part of the church *that was dumb* and my mom came in… and it was listening to us.. as we TRIED to work out slide… (we really didn’t need to go over stuff… but it was fun just getting to sing in the heat for a few minutes)

we sounded great — funny quote of the day

Juliet- Hey sweety
Dave- hey
Juliet- You’re not wearing all black are you?
Dave- Why?
Juliet- because it’s a benefit…. not a funeral….
Dave- lol!

and again… we both had on the same color blue *smiles* great minds think alike… well, at least I think we’re great minds!

I have so much fun with him… I’d like for us to do something like this again… I’ve played with other people before to make music, and it wasn’t this much fun. He’s truly my best friend… I didn’t think I had one until we got to be friends…

but we got out, and we sounded so good…so I get home and talk to my mom… and what a lot of people don’t know… I got these necklasses a sun and a moon two halfs, and I wear the moon… My mom noticed that he has the sun half of it… and I started blushing really bad when she asked me … I said that I never thought this would happen with the other half when I got it… but things happen and it was the right thing to do… he went home one day early… and when I originally got it… I didn’t think I was going to do anything with the other half… Because I never thought anyone would wear it…or care about it… and the day Dave went home and I didn’t know what happened or why he was gone… I got scared and I felt helpless… and I didn’t like that… and I wanted him to have it because I care about him that much… and it’s scary for me to admit out loud…. and the day I saw that he was wearing it… I don’t know… it was a weird feeling… and now I’m diverting from the original topic… fuck…

okay… therefore… I am done