I am going to go insane…

So… Kelly came today with Kye… They’ll be here until friday… I will loose my mind before this week is over… I swear to god…

This upsets me… but I have to get it out to feel better

my dad left at 10 to go get kelli… the same time my LAST parade forever started… and he didn’t even pick her up until 1:30!!!! 1:30!!!! the parade was over at fucking noon! HE MISSED MY LAST PARADE FOR NOTHING!

*feels crappy* I just want to run away right now… or play a game with someone or just get to do SOMETHING

And he’s such a dick… I’m gonna just loose my mind…

I’ll elaborate more…. well… someday

Emotional Weather Report

Nighthawks At the diner
Tom waits

late night and early morning low clouds
with a chance of fog
chance of showers into the afternoon
with variable high cloudiness
and gusty winds, gusty winds
at times around the corner of
Sunset and Alvorado
things are tough all over

when the thunder storms start
increasing over the southeast
and south central portions
of my apartment, I get upset
and a line of thunderstorms was
developing in the early morning
ahead of a slow moving cold front
cold blooded

with tornado watches issued shortly
before noon Sunday, for the areas
including, the western region
of my mental health

and the northern portions of my
ability to deal rationally with my
disconcerted precarious emotional
situation, it’s cold out there

colder than a ticket taker’s smile
at the Ivar Theatre, on a Saturday night

flash flood watches covered the
southern portion of my disposition
there was no severe weather well
into the afternoon, except for a lone gust of
wind in the bedroom

in a high pressure zone, covering the eastern
portion of a small suburban community
with a 103 and millibar high pressure zone
and a weak pressure ridge extending from
my eyes down to my cheeks cause since
you left me baby

and put the vice grips on my mental health
well the extended outlook for an
indefinite period of time until you
come back to me baby is high tonight
low tomorrow, and precipitation is

This isn’t to who You think it is

I can accept that you stopped caring about me… but now you’re a dick and you don’t even talk to me anymore… Dam you and those curls! Damn you and what I ever thought about you! I’m never thinking about you ever again after this!

Moving right along… Todays been quiet… exhausting too… but thats okay… I guess… I only got about 2-3 hours sleep last night because of my damn dog being scared of storms… I hope there’s not another one tonight… I’ll crack tomorrow for sure if there is one! So tired…

Um… I need to haul ass for relay… Just a note for myself…

States were yesterday, I had a great time… Spent the day with Jocelyn and it was fun, She doesn’t mind my stupid quirks or anything else idiot I tend to do

Whatelse… I need 5 minutes to myself… John and I aren’t talking, after that fucking hour and 1 minute fiasco I had with him the other night I’m kinda happy about it… I’m getting scare for once! he’s not smothering me! Some girls might like that… Drives me crazy…

There’s another storm cell comming through the area… when it hits they say it should last 2 hours… thank god I have gameboy… I’ll sit in the livingroom with my mom and the dog on the floor playing Pokemon… Sounds like fun to me… woohoo…

um… I’mgoing to get my PJs on… and be comfortable… sorta….

wow… I’ve got a lot to post and not a lot of time to do it in… and thats okay


oh… by the way… Jason.. Everytime I hear Fastcar I now think of you… *smirks*