I did my own interview in my head today in the car me getting interviewed by some girl magizine and I was the cover and the main story… it was so cool… I loved it…

but I was listened to Courtney Love read Kurts suicide note too… and I began to think, well… what would I write if I was in that posision… And I just thought about how I always said suicide was selfish, And I’m going against everything I ever said… but I wouldn’t have done it because I hated myself… I’d have done it because I hated the world…. that the world is a terriable place and people suck.. and they drove me to this point

I’ll finish this later… my dad is comming


Title- I love you
Artist- Barenaked ladies
Album- George

Chorus
I love you
And you love me
I love you
So let’s make a family tree.

I love you
And you love me
I love you
So let’s make a family tree.

I like soup, and I like ice cream sandwiches too.
I like fish sticks, but I love you.
You don’t believe me,
You say all I think about’s myself.
Let me explain, don’t walk away.

I love me
You love you
I love me
So what are we to do?

How would you know, that I love you so?
I don’t say too much.
Why are you blue whenever I’m in town?
I guess life was fine till I came ’round.

You’ve given me a start, I ain’t no
doctor but just take a look at the
chart for my heart like a dart from the
start I’m coming down with something good.
It ain’t no fever or flu, doctor says it
had to be someone
with brown hair and blue eyes, I’m
lovesick for you I realize.


I’s loves you

And youse loves me
I’s loves you
So let’s make a family tree.

How would you know, that I love you so?
I don’t say too much.
Why are you blue whenever I’m in town?
I guess life was fine till I came ’round.

I love you
And you love me
I love you
So let’s make a family tree.

I love you
And you love me
I love you
So let’s make a family tree.

The Trip…


There is a real reasion why I hate when my dad is home…

this was today…. my mom comes to me early when I was posting before saying whatever happens with Mike today, just agree with him. Make it painless… he took a weeks vacation and I should be nice. So, I just agree with her! And he’s at the DMV… and he calls and I’m all nice and shit even though it’s hard for me to do…

my mom is making a picnic lunch home made chicken nuggets and EVERYTHING to go take on the bike ride he wants to do down to washingtons crossing. then eat in the grass. Well, she makes the whole thing. and I go get my bike and bring it to the driveway and I go back inside to talk to Paul and Anthony…and I can already hear Mike and Janet fighting oer the picnic…

so in the end the picnic was scrapped. so we go anyway… and on the way to Lambertville the biggest fight of the day broke out with everyone screaming and I just wanted to get out of the car and walk home… I almost did… I hated that ride… my dad said this was a terriable day… everyone was screaming, he kept avoiding the only question…

so we almost drive home.. and go back again and take the fucking bike ride… and it was silence… me and my did riding for 8 miles… and it was silence… I need to ask dave if he wants to sneek out of his house tomorow morning and go on a ride with me before football… I don’t think he’ll want to. But it’s worth a try…

no one is home now… I’m gonna go enjoy the silence