I got this from Elvenwolfcub’s Journal and it touched me so much…


Daddy’s Pink Rose

Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy’s Day at school, and she couldn’t wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates of why he wasn’t there today.

But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school, eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently,> anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called, a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn’t there.

“Where’s her daddy at?” she heard a boy call out.

“She probably doesn’t have one,” another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say,
” Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day.”

The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.

“My Daddy couldn’t be here,because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories, he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him, I’m not standing here alone.

‘Cause my daddy’s always with me, even though we are apart
I know because he told me, he’ll forever be in my heart”

With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.

“I love my daddy very much, he’s my shining star.
And if he could, he’d be here, but heaven’s just too far.

You see he was a fireman and died just this past year
When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes, it’s like he never went away.” And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.

And to her mother’s amazement, she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side.

“I know you’re with me Daddy,” to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had bee! n closed. But there on the desk beside her,was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining bright star. And given the gift of believing that heaven is never too far.
@~>~~>~~>~~>~~

— Remember there are only two things that REALLY matter,
who you love and who loves you

… sometimes I wish 60 miles was a lot farther away…

Sick day!! Sick day!


Well, I was really getting sick yesterday but since i got to sleep in today I feel a lot better! ^^ I needed a day to relax! I really push myself too hard… too many classes! Too many Credits o.o;; I still don’t feel that great though. I hope it’s better soon!

Anyway… I added to La Entrada yesterday in the LJ, I kinda like what I did in there, but I need to addd some to the middle, I think it went to fast for me… **shrugs** I’m not useto posting in the mornings! I’m useto sleeping through my classes! hehe Today is great though. I saw the good bye steve episode on Nickelodian those were so cute! but seeing steve go to college was really sad! but cute! I love that show! hehe! sooo adorable!!

La Entrada. I HAVE HAD INSPIRATION.


Enomarado – La Entrada
Alaborn Relicbane

“I believe I should start from the bible, the beginning and ending of all.
        In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the earth…The earth was a formless wasteland, and darkness covered the abyss while a wind swept over the waters.  Then god said… “Let there be light” and there was light. And it was good… And throughout the 6 days god created the Dry land, The Sea, Moon and stars. And among the animals he brought forth the man and woman to rule over them with his blessing.”   The room was dark, the feminine voice trailed off leaving an uncomfortable silence on the table in-between them. She dropped her cowl like hood back, Revealing a some what surprising figure of what appeared to be a young girl, the shadows lying against her skin made her appear older, but vulnerable. Pulling her long, dark hair out of the back of her hood she looked into my eyes
“There was not just an eve child, but two. The mother of all was not just the first child of God. There was Lillith, God had created her from the rib of Adam as the bible says, but she was wild, easily tempted, easily tricked. And as the serpent saw that her eye teeth could be used to draw blood he rushed to the occasion. Tempting her not with the apple of creation but with the blood of ages. As the night fell and her fangs slipped into the neck of her husband Adam He heavenly father came to his aide, Casting the woman out of the garden and punishing her to feed of the blood of men for all ages.
But the Serpent was not to be evaded that easily. As Lillith prepared herself for a death by fire the Serpent offered her one more gift. The offer to be immortal like god, He said to drink blood is to live forever, to create a-new by transferring the blood was a gift. And for her soul… for her soul she could live in the darkness forever. And without a moment of hesitation she accepted this gift for her soul. And as the night fell, and each star shed its light onto the land below the brightness of Lillith’s soul flickered and was sent into the underworld. She had died and yet been reborn…. and as the days, months and years followed her life she fed on the blood of others… living in eternal darkness, but for her time and pain she gained great rewards…”
        Again she trailed off, leaving nothing behind of her voice, I could barely find words in my throat to speak to her directly, but there was something inside that drew me to her, every moment I found pulled me closer and closer to this one, the one.  My eyes locked onto hers.
“My name is Kismet Todavias… Some referrer to me… as Eve… you may as you please…”  She cupped her hand around the fire and it glowed brighter, yet brighter still and I saw her face, for those few moments I saw her long, black hair. Dark, frozen eyes piercing and her white skin. Her lips just touching each other so her stoic expression would never waver. As she removed her hands, the flame went down, back into its silver holder.
“You are searching for Alaborn Relicbane.” it was so calm, like she read my mind, she couldn’t have known my quest of answers
“How could you know?” gracefully she put her hands across the table stopping even my slightest gesture.
“Relicbane has been the… bane… of my existence for 2000 years… WE have not just known each other but have hand the misfortune to have had the same mistress during the period known as the Roman Empire…” I felt my eyes widening at her soft, calm breathy voice.
“She was my daughter, my fledgling, the carrier of the Relicbane for my mistress… Sorine of Relicbane… But all of that changed as that Bitch betrayed me! Power hungry and worthless she trapped me in my own home!”
You must tell me this story! You must explain all of this to me! I need to track her down!”
“Trust me my dear, I know what you want as much as it was my own dream years ago. I will tell you my story, I will tell you about Alaborn Mariel Relicbane as well, as she is as much a part of my story as she is yours now… if you please?” she blew out the candle and with the cinder she scratched onto the table a pentacle, holding her hands on top of it until the glow was solid
“It was back as the Roman Empire was weakening, The Empire was split into two parts now and I was the strongest maiden the queens’ soothsayer…”
“Madam Todavias… What about before you?” I cut her off and her dark; almost black eyes could have slit my throat.” 
“You have nothing to know there child. Everything you need to know will come after my first 1000 years. The only worth while information is about my being the Right hand of the mistress Sorine… She had destroyed the Soldevi Vampiric clan. I was a Soldevi then, the controlled all of Constantinople… before Constantine came. And as the vampires destroyed the land I helped the resistance and for my alliances Sorine put me as her… Head Vampiress, in charge of all of her commitments. There were a series of…Vampire crusades back then… were only the best women and men were chose for Sorines Empire… And the town of Ankara was the easier for the first attack. She sent her strongest allies… along with me to round up the strongest, brightest ones… and to kill the excess… I was told to wait outside the town while the ones were kidnapped and killed during the night, piled into carts and dragged back to Constantinople. I waited… and waited in the dungeons coordinating. And as the first people came. I was prepared. A fortnight later they were lined up, nude, against the cold stone walls. And I, dressed in back made the final selections for Sorine…

(( I’ve been writing for hours. And I’ll stop now))


wow, it’s been a long weekend! I had to work both days! ** exhausted** 10-closing on Saturday and 8am to closing today!! EEEE lucky we closed early today! I’d have died if we didn’t… But other then that today sucked. I’m cold, Wet because it rained all fucking day. I mean, we need the water but WHY IS IT ALWAYS WHEN I HAVE TO GO OUT IN IT! I hate it that we close early now, it just makes my life even worse.

well, I had to go and fucking fail math, I had to get a fucking 50 in the damned class it’s ont like I try to be stupid! And my god damned history teacher didn’t give me a fucking GRADE! there’s a fucking BLANK… thanks McGinnis! Fucking queer! That thing I needed there was your fucking moron no grade! fucker can kiss my ass!

sorry, I’m cold, tired, hungry, Tired, cold and annoyed because of those… I will be irratable

Scrach that, downright IRATE!! and vicci’s sick.. .poor baby…damn it… I’m not in the mood anymore




Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype
at mutedfaith.com.
[Angel.]

take the antisocial test.


and go to mewing.net. because laura’s feeling social.

You’re Kasumi Karen!
You’re outgoing and friendly, you are probably a big flirt, and you know how to flaunt your good qualities. However, you’re also a lot deeper than most people realize. Beneath your teasing attitude lies your true kind and gentle nature. You care deeply about people in general, and your loved ones in particular. Your maternal instincts lead you to automatically wish to protect that which you love, even if it happens to be a married man…
Which Dragon of Heaven are you?
Quiz by Kerianne


**sighs** it’s not been a long day, just a long week, I don’t know what it is, I feel like I’m just so emotionally drained… I’m really,really tired… I got lectured by rob today about a lot of crap. You know, I didn’t meant for all of this to happen, and I don’t really want to be romantic with Rob. an I don’t want him to think he’s just a Victor placeholder, because he’s not. I love him a lot, but I’d like for us to be best friends, I don’t want the two of us to get involved and then have something happen. You get it?

Victor is different though, He’s my soul mate… I just wish my parents understood that! I really love him, he’s my angel! Today I feel different about him because of all this shit but I mean.. there are things that will never change… damn… I’m confusing myself… I’m so happy tomorrow is Saturday. I’m just hurting all over from school, I NEED A VACATION!!! just from everyone…

more later


Richard Nygård band
~~ angel faces smile~~
I walked alone that Wednesday, the cemetery seemed gray
graves are hidden, hard to see. And between them stood trees
And the rocks I kneeled to read, A little stone before my feet
with the words all washed away, just a single line to pray
And with the morn those angel faces smile
and with the morn those angel faces smile!
Do do do.. Ooh
I read a lot, a lot on earth
but none of them felt right
rest a little an in a while you’ll see the day turn back to night.
in the grass I kneeled to read, A little stone before my feet
with the words all washed away, just a single line to pray
And with the morn those angel faces smile
and with the morn those angel faces smile!
do da do.. oh oh…
I walked alone that Wednesday, that cemetery seemed gray
graves are hidden, hard to see
and between them stood trees.


I had to do it didn’t I! Shoot my mouth off and be me! why do I always go and do that! I just got frustrated at him! He’s better the me at so amny things and but I want it to be my turn! just like everyone else! I want to have 15minutes where it’s ALL ME! DAMN IT INTO HELL!!!!!