Slow tonight


so I said I watned to do a long, long post today… but i enver got around to it because i’ve been so busy! No badn today, all happiness achieved! I’ve spent a lot of the day cleaning and stuff …. been really happy today… um… Say the sympathy Video ^^ I love the goo goo dolls. and I found out the choirs and the bands hav their own trips this year! YAY! All exciting but its 600 dollars… poo…

I’ve got work todo!!!! bai bai

endless nameless pt 2


my hell, there is certanly someone out there trying to make my life SUCK… and they’re doing a good job about it… I’ve been so mindlessly overwhelmed lately its not even funny!!! my god… and this stupid thing just posted without me wanting it to… goddammit… I’m os happy I’m not going in on friday! But this has been my day… I got in early and I meant to wait to go see who got what parts but I went anyway, I pretty much though that I had first chair… so I go in, put my band stuff away and I look at the list and I got second stand chair 1… WHAT THE FUCK!!!! she’ doesn’t even know what the circle of 4ths is! she doesn’t know anything and my audition was way better! I was so disgusted and I just wanted to go home right then! I left but was so pissed off I went to walk around… realized that I had NO MONEY With me to get anythingto drink for the rest of the day….found dave a while later…and just was miserable… colin saw me over there… and don’t know what he thinks… its terriable. I didn’t want him to bethere but I just needed a hug.. I’m talking about dave now. Almost got stung by a hornet out there too… and that… yeah…

went to classes… went to guidance.. got a lot more college stuff sorted out, I’m happy about that, just a few more things to go than I’m done… and I went home at 12… the weather was bad… my shoulder was throbbing so I went home and I kinda had to make up an excuse a little bit, yeah, it hurt like hell, but I was so injured from everything else that this was nothing… i just wanted to die…

went home… felt like crap the whole time. I wanted to play pool with victor tonight but he ditched me in 40 seconds… he said he’d call me back. but then he took it back asn asked me to call him… and he never wants to play pool with me.. why do I call him… i wanted to beg him last night to tell me giovanni because I was so empty… I just wanted Giovanni from him…I’m so drained and have history to read still, I got a lot done today, I’ll be in all day tomorow not like anyone cares. I’m supose to wait for Dave R… but I don’t know if I’ll actually do it or not…

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