Writer’s Block: Bah Humbug Day!


*breaths*

if the stupid men who I work with leave their houses like they do the department …. then they all live in a pigs byre! I can't stand cleaning up after them! Take out your own trash, break down your own cardboard and PUT YOUR OWN SHIT AWAY! I am not your maid/mother/servant.

GROW UP. Stop making dirty, revolting, perverted jokes… this isn't a frat house or a locker room!

*breaths*

ahhhh… much better

Writer’s Block: Roommate from Hell


I was blessed to live with not just ONE psycho roommate from hell but TWO psycho roommates from hell … the first one was like a stalker who had ‘allergies’ so we got to have an air conditioner in the room. that was great until … for someone so sick … she never spent a night in there. oh wait! Before i forget. She got to the room before i did on move in day and her parents set the room up just the way Lindsay would wand it and told me i just had to live with it the other way. I had to sleep on the bunk beds while she put her bed on the floor because it was safer …. my mom and i put and end to that really fast!  oh… and for all the drama her parents did about how the room had to be set up for her (because i didn’t count) she would sleep where ever she felt like but the AC always had to be on and COLD. I turned it off one day and she came in saw it, called he mother and they almost took disciplinary action against me!! it was a nice fall day and i even checked the levels outside to see if it would be ok…. oh, and she had absolutely no hygiene practices either. she always left dirty crotched up underwear in the middle of the floor and all this nasty open rotting food so when my mom would come to see me she’d step right on it … it just got worse from there. So finally her mother went to the D.O.S about all of this and said that i was a danger to her daughter! ME!!! seriously!!! I cried everyday. we had to go to mediation because of all of this and in the end the crazy girl got her own room and my mom had to move me up to the 3rd floor of the complex because Lindsay HAD TO HAVE the air conditioner or she would be desperately ill. Oh…. she also got mono and blamed it on me and her mother probably wanted us to pay for all her hospital bills… they said she had LIVER DISEASE FROM THE WINDOW BEING OPEN. We all said it was mono and they fought with me …it turned out to be mono and i left and was mad because it wasn’t fair

oh, her mom’s complaint was that her daughter deserved a room of her own at any price … and that they found  BRIGHT GREEN POLLEN COVERING THE SURFACES OF THE ROOM!! that i was trying to kill her! I wanted to kill her to get my own room ….. the funny thing is that this was BLOODY NOVEMBER or OCTOBER … there is NO GREEN POLLEN at that time of year

then they moved me into the room with Dagmar … who was nice at first (did i mention i requested to live with a girl in the other complex who had an open space and was denied?! ) … she was a nymphomaniac! she never did homework and spent all day and night in bed skipping a lot of classes … and she would constantly take my keys and hide them and lock me out so she could have sex in the room all night IN MY BED and i would come back to find this mess and have to find somewhere else to sleep for the night… there were a few times i had to call family friends to sleep at their houses because she always locked me out before EXAMS.

…. i transferred schools after that semester. After that everyone else was relatively normal … except for the girl who had lice…. and let me know that she was cured of it … but never said she had them in the first place… and yelled it across the main street of town and that i had to take my important stuff because they were going to fumigate the building

…. yeah… that was still better than the first two nuts! i’m glad i dont have roommates anymore! 

Writer’s Block: Meanwhile, back on the ranch …


the absolute worst thing about going back to work … especially at my really crappy job is that i know my boss will give me hell for no particular reason. She’s just a gigantic pain in the butt and likes to just be a great big bully. So for that time I’m not there… it’s really nice because i can actually just spend some time not being talked down to … and i think that every time i come back i get less and less acclimated to the fact that shes just a nasty bitch.

i was just off for 2 weeks and today will be my 4th day back after it … and all i can keep thinking is ‘why am i still here … and even better … why do i still put up with this nonsense from her.

Writer’s Block: Snark, who goes there?



I have said a few things to online friends I’m not sure I’d be able to say in person. I can’t say that it would be NEVER because sometimes I’ve been known to say stupid things in both places. I know first hand that sometimes it’s so much easier to say something to a face time person online than it is face to face. Especially if you have doubts about that person actually listening to you when you’re close together.  and I have had a few different occasions where we’ve sat next to eachother while on our computers and just had to talk out the things that have been bothering us. Just so we both could have the time to make sure the words were just right. It helps me a lot to be able to do that, and i think it’s helped him too. We both sometimes have trouble communicating our feelings when we get upset. it’s not that we dont want to, it’s just that there are baricades that stop us sometimes.

I feel like it’s harder to discount real feelings when a relationship is online, you cant just turn your feelings on and off like from a light switch. if you love someone, you love them. That’s something i read in time magazine too, they did a big article on MMORPGs and Second life where relationships are really formed and those feelings ARE real. There is no such thing as ‘discounting’ feelings. They’re not some magical thing that can just be for someone online. You can love someones RP character, i know I fell inlove with  ‘s character before i fell inlove with him, but i couldn’t stop loving this person on the screen and beyond it.

I think the disconnect can be habit forming in that sometimes the online relationships can truly mean more than the face time ones. I’m sure that there are some people that are able to do things like making a habit of disconnecting yourself… if all of your relationships are online and you can’t have a realtime one because of a communication gap…. then i think it’s time to reevaluate yourself and see deep inside if there is something that is preventing that deep connection from moving from the screen to the skin. Everyone is different. The internet, like everything else, can be a wonderful tool to help communicate… but we all need to make sure that we know where the heart and soul of everything is.

Omnia vincit Amor

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