Oh bloody hell….

So… and I went over to the big STUPID walmart that faces the wrong direction down in Allentown … like… stupid because it faces the REST OF THE MALL…. but we were talking about how with my issues I can either hold them back, or try to force them out to get it over with … well, when I'm just being myself …but we passed the dude with the salvation army ringing his bell … and for most of the day I was having a pretty mild time … well … the dude with the bell happened to have one that's close to the pitch of my shreaks…

and then it started… i'm shreaking at the same pitch and tone as the stupid bell!!!! So my dear one tells me that he knows this trick that really helps with stuttering… how about I try to focus on the word 'pumpkin' … ok so I tried it … over and over and over …

Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…
Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…
Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…
Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…
Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…Pumpkin…

… well, i went from calling like a bell to shreaking the word PUMPKIN…. omg, so he felt awful… and i was irate over it because today hasnt been a good day for all my issues but it wasn't the worst either. Like I might actually be heading around the right corner.

i was just embarrassed and it was lame…I had to ask him to apologise to me about it, I just needed to hear the words even though I know that he was.

So the next suggestion was a word I'd have more trouble with… we turn around the isle… he suggests to me

Neapolitan

sure… why not… I mean really… lets see what that does… All i did was start to have a major attack in the TP isle… and went back to squeek/shreaking. and having these awful urges all over the rest of my body…

It's taken me a few hours to just settle back in since we got home… thank god for drugs that make the insanity stop… and a great guy who doesn't mind me having a violent ticcing fit in the car before we pull out of the space…

oh, but he's pretty sure as soon as I tell the girls in the TicTalk group about this they're all going to kick his tush … I think it would be funny to see them try!

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