I meant to story all weekend for it but never really got around to it … I’m not a biologist anymore. I go to complete the religion program next semester… I’ll ahve half of it done by the end of the year. It’s sad to me that I’m behind but at the same time I’ve learned so muh through screwing all of this up so badly for the past semesters *lol*
now… Why didn’t I study for anything this weekend? It wasn’t because of the Halloween parade (although that was some of it) It wasn’t because I had to deal with my father … but it was mostly because I was talking to for 4 hours last night… along with throughout the rest of my weekend. Not like I mind at all, don’t think that it bothers me. I love having someone I can talk to like that.
I’m not complaining about this. I loved it… even though about 1/3 of it was giggling…
I don’t know what it is though … I thought I got past this phase of actually talking like that on the phone, and acting like a silly little girl… but I find myself doing it again. I never really enjoyed sending all that time on the phone when I was 16… yeah… he’s different.
I can actually have a conversation thats not about something stupid like G.I Joe… *eye Roll*
He cares about me more than I do myself. I do feel bad about that… He made a good point last night though… I should have a decent ID bracelet and I’m going to get it for myself soon… and I know exactally what one I plan on getting … exactally … it would be my special occasion/I want to feel pretty today bracelet.
On another note, tonight is the samhaim sabbat… so if someone or no one goes i’m going to be out back doing the Sabbat for myself and for my own good. I just need to remember to get a lighter or a matchbook… and some black paper. well, I have a few hours yet to get everything right. I know I do… and if it stinks I’ll celebrate the next one and the next full moon.
I’m not even going to try to cram for this exam. it’s useless really… I’m going to bomb it and thats allright. I’m just so tired of bio now. How did I ever think I could do PT? really? *lol* so until I get back here later… or back to my room (becasuse i’m ni the library as always in the morning)
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows